Friday, November 03, 2006

Now that I have said it out loud...

I am getting to where I can get over the victimization and the anger of it.

"Premenstrual Disphoric Disorder.".

I told a friend last night. One down, many more to go. I need to get this out and talk about it. I need to know that I can deal with this. I need to admit that I have a trial and that it will improve my life if I will let it teach me.

My therapist said the other day...

"Trials/struggles, are the schoolmasters of our lives. They are meant to teach us."

He also said that Heavenly Father didn't just say one day, "Oh, I think I'll give Leah Premenstual Disphoric Disorder." No, this is part of the plan. We are given weakness to make us strong. To remind us to turn to God. To make us humble. To keep us from being too prideful. Heavenly Father knows what he's doing. And, he is teaching me to know what I'm doing. Or, to know what I should be doing!

I need to take my own advice that I once shared with a friend after she was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. "This is not a death sentence." She is alive and well today. I am alive and well today.

I can do this!

Biggest thing to work on...Turn to HIM! Trust in HIM! Trust in HIS plan!