I like the rollercoaster

Sunday, March 23, 2008

I'm off for Choir tour

We will be hitting Price, Moab, and Green River. I will return on Wednesday evening and I will be sure to update on Easter and my tour, maybe even with pics, when I return.

I have to say, this is weird, I'm going to go on a trip with a bunch of people half my age.

I do get to room with a friend that's around my age though, and a pregnant lady, so the party begins! Bwahahahahahahahaha!

Easter Sunday's food for thought

We may not know what lies ahead of us.
We know not what the coming days will bring.
We live in a world of uncertainty.
But one thing we do know.
Like the polar star in the heavens, regardless of what the future holds, there stands the Redeemer of the world, the Son of God, certain and sure as the anchor of our immortal lives.
He is the rock of our salvation, our strength, our comfort, the
very focus of our faith."

President Gordon B. Hinckley

Happy Easter everyone!

Sunday, March 16, 2008

School starts tomorrow

I've had a nice spring break since Wednesday. Now, it's time to get back to work. It's gonna be crunch time from here on out. I have 3 big projects in Music theory that I am quite nervous about. Then I have one big paper in my Social Work class. Choir tour comes on March 24th-26th, and I have to add all this to my kids school stuff. I just don't feel on top of things like I want to, but I do know that I can do this. I have to. Music theory has been more difficult than ever and I feel so inadequate to the task. I've got to rid myself of this perfectionistic attitude and know that I can do my best and pass the class. I will pass it. Once I'm done with this I will be done with theory all together. Yay!

I played the Raindrop Prelude by Chopin in a group performance class week before last and had a major anxiety attack. Now I get to go out and play in at least 10 different settings to get some exposure (as my teacher would say). That's the best thing for performance anxiety. I know that. But, it's getting past the anxiety to perform that gets in the way. My teacher said she'll give me an "A" if I do this and also perform in the next performance class. I need this A to offset the grade I'll probably get in theory. I want to keep my GPA up for future scholarships.

Choir has been a blast and we're going to go down to Moab, Green River, and Price for a 3 day tour. I'm not excited about the places we're going, but the fact that we're going sounds like so much fun.

My Social work class has also been really good for me. We are doing 15 hrs. of volunteer work in a government agency and then doing a big paper on it. That has been fun too.

Concerning my PMDD, my dr. decided to change my BC pills because they found problems with the Yaz. It is supposedly affecting potassium levels, cholesterol levels, and some blood pressure. So, they are trying me on Loestrin 24 fe. I've only been on it for 5 days now and I am not feeling so well. More cranky than usual at this part of my cycle, plus more depressed. I don't know if it's the meds or life, or stress. I constantly go through all the possibilities and struggle to figure it out. I'm giving this new med a good try and then when I go in for my physical in May, I will see if I level out again. Man this is frustrating. I hate feeling hopeless and not knowing why.

Sunday's Food for Thought

It is extremely difficult, if not impossible, for the devil to enter a door that is closed. He seems to have no keys for locked doors. But if a door is slightly ajar, he gets his toe in, and soon this is followed by his foot, then by his leg, and his body and his head, and finally he is in all the way.

President Spencer W. Kimball

Thursday, March 13, 2008

123 book meme

Meme Rules:

1. Grab the book closest to you.
2. Open to page 123, go down to the fifth sentence.
3. Post the text of the next three sentences on your blog.
4. Name of the book and the author.
5. Tag three people.

Tally collapsed onto the bed, covering her face with her hands and sobbing.

Peris sat next to her and held her for a while as she cried, then wiped her nose and sat her up.

"Look at you, Tally Youngblood."

"Uglies" by Scott Westerfeld

This is a book my daughter is reading and loves

Here's the synopsis:
Tally was tired of being separated from her best friend, Peris. The last few months, trapped in Uglyville while Peris was in New Pretty Town, had been torture. Tally decided she had to see him, even if for only a few minutes, and escaped into New Pretty Town. She did manage to see Peris very briefly and he had changed inside and out. He was mildly pleased to see Tally and promised they would be best friends again when Tally became "pretty" in a few months. He helped her escape safely and, on her way back to Uglyville, she met Shay. Shay is another "ugly" who was also meeting a friend in New Pretty Town. She and Tally shared stories of their adventures. They became the best of friends, and Shay took Tally to the Rusty Ruins. She shared with her about a group of people who had run away to live in the forest by the ruin. Those people had decided not to become "pretty" and Shay was considering it too. She wanted Tally to run away with her and not become "pretty", but Tally wouldn't. Shay left without her. So, Tally became sixteen, and was on her way to the hospital for the "pretty" operation, when she found herself at Special Circumstances instead. A "cruel pretty" named Dr. Cable met with Tally and told her that either she could become a spy and go to the forest and activate a tracker (disguised as a pendant) so that the people living there could be arrested or she could stay "ugly" forever. Tally, thinking she really didn't have a choice, decided to become a spy and found the people who lived in the forest, called the Smoke. The Smokies, as they are called, don't trust her at first, but in time, she convinced them that she wanted to be there. Tally had to tell numerous lies to cover the truth and the lies get more and more complicated. In time, she decided that she really liked living there, developed a relationship with David, and wanted to become a Smokie. To show her commitment to the Smokies, and to David specifically, Tally threw her pendant into the fire. Unbeknownst to Tally, the pendant was programmed to go off even if it was damaged. The tracking signal was sent, and when Tally awoke, Special Circumstances had surrounded the Smoke. Will Tally, David, and the other Smokies escape or will they be captured and forced to become "pretty"?

I tag the Denise, Kris, and Donna

Monday, March 10, 2008

Sunday's Food for Thought (on Monday)

Since I was so busy yesterday, I didn't have an opportunity to get on the computer, so here is a thought for today:

Happiness keeps you sweet,
Trials keep you strong,
Sorrows keep you human,
Failures keep you humble,
Success keeps you glowing,
But only God keeps you going.